Do you want powerful resources, deep support and radical safe space for your
You’re riding the waves of what it means to be alive.
What it means to show up for yourself and your healing. What it means to come home to your body and connect to your truth.
Some days you feel like everything is fine or even great! Other days you find yourself numb and lost. Some days you feel powerless or like you’re losing your fucking mind.
You feel heavy with the weight of what you’re carrying.
You are ready to show up and do the work and you’re scared.
You want radical support for your individual needs and circumstances. You want meaningful relationships and community.
You feel disconnected from yourself, your soul and sometimes you have no idea who you are anymore.
You want to feel safe enough to explore the depths of what it means to be human at this time. Safe enough to explore what happens when we move your emotions with your body and your voices. Safe enough to take responsibility for yourself and what is present for you. Safe enough to stand in your power and reclaim your healing.
You want to dismantle the toxic social constructs that taught you that you weren’t good enough, powerful enough, capable enough to heal.
You want to live a life beyond your wildest dreams.
You want to build a solid foundation to come back to so that you feel steady and confident about how healing happens and what it looks like in your life.
I get it. I have been there. I’ve been in dark, scary and unknown places. I’ve been the woman stuck in surviving, living moment to moment, feeling unsure if I could even make it to the next. I’ve been the woman trying anything and everything that might help. I’ve been the woman feeling hopeless, helpless and powerless to heal my trauma and face my pain.
I’ve made a safe space for you, for all of us that have met our darkness and are unsure of what the fuck to do next.
I don’t pretend to know what it is you need but I deeply believe in your inner wisdom and capacity to heal.
Healing has always been yours. You have always been the expert on what it is you need to heal. Unfortunately, we live in a society that is built on shame and trauma. Our society encourages us to look for answers outside of ourselves. We’re taught that we need doctors, drugs or therapists* to heal instead of listening to our own wisdom and trusting our innate ability to heal. You have survived every day of your life thus far, you are wildly powerful and full of magic. That same power that helped you to adapt and survive can help you heal when you have a safe environment and container.
Together, we co-create a safe and transformational space to explore whatever arises on an individual and collective level. I could promise that you’ll finish the course feel happier, supported, confident, magical and peaceful but that’s not how I roll. Healing is not a linear journey and I will never pretend or reinforce the idea that it is. We will all have highs and lows in this journey- what I can promise is that you will have a safe space to explore those peaks and valleys. When we are able to sit with and explore our shadow, we are also more able to experience the light. Both have value and magic in my experience.
You may have vulnerability hangovers and experience what comes up when you share with an open heart and authenticity. You may have shame come up and experience thoughts like, “Oh my gosh, did I really share that? What if I was too much? I shouldn’t have written those things!” When we can allow space for those feelings and what arises when we are vulnerable, we can transform the way we live and love. We can take back and step into the power of our shadow.
We will redefine what it means to be human, how we relate to each other and how we connect to nature. We will open up new possibilities for growth and healing.
You will experience new levels of presence through developing awareness, safety and trust. You will tap into your creativity and inner knowing. You will build new neural pathways that better serve what you want out of life instead of what you once needed to survive.
We will open up new pathways to safety, trust, connection, expressing emotions, personal responsibility, and being supported. You will experience the magic that unfolds when we show up in a space where feelings, vulnerability and challenges are heard and seen instead of shut-down through tactics of fixing, giving advice, blaming, comforting, shaming, or ignoring. You can explore your voice, inner wisdom and fire by showing up in a safe space with whatever is true for you, moment to moment.
I will share my story with you and the lessons I have learned along the way. I don’t know what that will bring up for you but I do know the power of story medicine- did you know that hearing stories actually releases endorphins?
Through my story you’ll connect with your own and whatever resonates with your journey. I’m a survivor, a woman who has experienced some of the worst betrayals and trauma a person can go through. I’m a woman who has experienced parts of my soul coming home to my body. I’m a woman who continues to show up for myself and my healing. I’m a woman who has fallen to her knees and then fallen further- screaming for help. I’m a woman who knows what it’s like to feel dead, lifeless, just surviving moment to moment. I’m a woman who knows what it’s like to feel alive, hopeful and strong. I am a warrior and I believe that you are too.
I can’t wait to experience the magic and medicine that we create together.
Is the struggle fucking real?
Do you need more support for whatever is present on your journey?
Are you ready to start showing up for yourself?
This space is for you if you want to follow your own unique process blow your own mind with what is possible for you.
We will be using the rhythm of the moon to light our way on the journey. Many of us have been disconnected from nature and the natural seasons of the Earth and our lives. By beginning to connect with the moon, we are creating new pathways to a connection that is already alive within us. Our relationship with our outer world, mother earth and our relationship with our selves are all very intertwined. I have found connecting with nature to be an integral part of my healing journey and I believe that the moon has its own medicine and lessons for you too. The more I explore and am able to see my own inner world, the more I am able to experience outside of me as well.
You’ll receive emails from me, insights, masterclass. There will be resources, deep and meaningful conversation, connection and support.
There will be support, story medicine, courage and vulnerability over in our community group on Facebook. You can connect with others in there and on group calls and connect with yourself and your creativity with your companion journal.
I invite you to go at a pace that feels right to you or even simply explore the idea of what might feel right to you if you are unsure. You can always reconnect or begin again with the next moon cycle at any time.
There will be space for anything that arises. I’ve created some structure to hold us along the way but we’ll also be moving with the flow of it all.
These are some of the themes we’ll explore…
Medicine is All Around Us
Play & Inner Children
Trauma & the Patriarchy
Safety & Emotions
You will receive…
A 1:1 Deep Dive Session with me
A series of letters from my soul to yours
Four live zoom calls and access to replays
A companion journal to support you on your journey (digital and printable)
A curated spotify playlist
Community support via Facebook group and group calls
Masterclasses, resources, story medicine and support
Lifetime access to resources, masterclasses and future live rounds
Doors Open January 29th
This course has been burning within me for a few years now. I started noticing how much I was impacted my friends and community through showing up for myself and sharing my story. I knew that I wanted more support, visibility and resources for trauma survivors and everyone struggling with mental health. I’ve been on one hell of a ride to get here. Shout out the the universe for all its lessons, medicine and unwavering support. A massive thank you to all of the therapists, healers, body/energy workers and soul family that has supported me along the way. I wouldn’t be here without you.
My healing journey really began about 9 years ago. I was 17, going to community college and a hot mess. I loved to party, was addicted to sex and one night I got so drunk that I vomited vodka out of my nose. #classy
I was in a constant state of hypervigilance and panic but I didn’t even know it. I was numbing out any way I could all of the time. I was barely breathing.
One night, I couldn’t sleep so around 2 AM I rented a strange movie on iTunes. I woke up the next morning with my first recovered repressed memory of sexual abuse that happened in my childhood. I began to unravel at the seams and experienced extreme breakdowns, vaginismus and vulvodynia (read: breakthroughs and spiritual awakening). This was the first time that I sought out professional help and began to wake up to what was happening for me.
The years that followed and bring me to the present moment have been full to the brim. They were full of pain, healing, escaping, truth, connection, oversharing, doubt, codependency, joy, boundary breaking, love, nightmares, adventure, peace, flashbacks, therapy, boundary building, trauma, emotions, nature, fear, anxiety, adventures, energy, depression, chaos and life.
I’ve had a lived experience of healing and facing my pain and wounding head-on. I’ve become an expert in my own journey. I’ve read all sorts of books and watched a billion TED talks. I’ve learned SO MUCH from all my relations all around the world.
Want to know more about me? Check out my about page.
Listening to Lotus speak actually makes my whole nervous system calm down. She has a beautiful presence that can be felt whether you are sitting across from her or in another country and connecting online. She is a gorgeous example of how trauma can be turned into triumph when you do the inner work, rising from the ashes to ignite and inspire change in others. Her non-judgemental acceptance and love for those who have experienced trauma will transform a lot of lives, I’m sure of it
This is for you if you are READY to show up for yourself.
This is for you if you’ve been drowning in your darkness.
It’s for you if you’ve been on your healing journey for what feels like forever and you need more support that is trauma-informed and authentic.
This is for you if you want to connect with other women (and those that identify as women*) on a healing journey.
*This is a space created specifically for people that identify as women and femmes. If you’re someone who identifies strongly with the feminine and you feel this would be a healing space for you, you are also welcome.
This course is NOT for you if you aren’t ready to look at what is currently present for you and face some discomfort. It is okay if you do not feel ready to look at your stuff- if that’s the case please know
Frequently Asked Questions
I’ve tried so many things… what is different about this one?
This is a unique course and space in that it is NOT about giving you advice, telling you what to do or doing any one thing in a certain way or time. This is all about YOUR journey, YOUR story and what is present for YOU. I believe in you, I don’t believe that I have the answers for you.
What if I can't get through all the content in the set time?
I invite you to explore at your own pace and to find your own rhythm. The space is yours to use as you feel able to called to use it. Take your time. Rest and reflect when you feel to. Go through all the resources super quickly, go live in the group and post multiple times a day if you feel to. I trust you to do what is right for you. You’ll be able to join in for future live rounds as well and have access to everything as it evolves.
What if I’m too much?
I don’t believe that any of us are too much and it’s also okay if you feel like you are too much sometimes- I certainly do! Sometimes others may be triggered by our stories and experiences but that is simply a reflection of their own experiences. This is a space for you to explore all of that.
I’m scared and unsure…
I hear you and I think those are valid and important feelings. I invite you to express them in a safe place using your body and voice. Imagine how a child might express fear and uncertainty. Allow yourself to lean into and move with your emotions.
I feel overwhelmed… HALP!
I get it. I am so familiar with my own experiences of overwhelm. Let’s take a deep breath together. In through your nose, filling up your belly, and exhaling with whatever sound wants to come out. How can you breathe into and move with the overwhelm? What does it want to say? How does your body want to move?
Remember, this course is yours forever once you join. It’s okay to let it take the time it takes and simply do the next right thing moment to moment. It’s okay if the next right thing is drinking some water, letting your body shake or having a shower.
Do I need to do or know anything to start?
Definitely not! This is a safe place to explore, rest, play and get familiar with what we don’t know. How do you feel about the unknown?
Do I need a Facebook account?
Nope! If you want to participate in the group but don’t want to have other stuff on FB, I’d suggest creating a separate profile just for the course. In the future, I may host the group on a separate space- like a private group on my website- so please let me know if you’d be interested in that.
Any other questions or concerns holding you back? I’d love to chat!